bad habit

this is weakness of mine, something i wish i didn't let myself do: setting myself up for disappointment. i put my hope and my heart into things and people that i know in the end will disappoint me. why? i guess i just want to believe that maybe this time, things will turn out for the better, hoping that things i hear and things i see are just pieces of the facade. but who knows what's real and what's fake these days; actions, words, and even emotions. i put my whole heart into it just for it to be disappointed and set back in the end. i want to hope that someday this consistent desire to fill the space will pay off-only God knows when. i won't set myself up for disappointment anymore.